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I swallowed the pills,

In hope the pain will go away. 

I swallowed the pills,

In hope i could have a longer sleep and when i woke up the pain will be gone.

But will you still be there when i wake up? 

Or you wont? 

Because i am the pain in your life?

3

Even the kittens left. 

Just like everyone else. 

3am (P2)

God created 3 am as a punishment for people like me. 

So every time I woke up with tears in my eyes and heart racing in my chest,

I will remember every single pain I inflicted on you.

And every time I wanted to beg for forgiveness from you.

My inner demon growled and remind me that he is still there.

And I cant promise a better tomorrow nor a better me. 

For not able to turn my back on yesterday, 

and too weak to face an uncertain tomorrow,

There's an angry me fighting my 3 am shadow,

every single day. 

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